( remus can't help but laugh, an abrasive sort of bark that he regrets as soon as it slips past his lips. all the awkwardness of the situation aside, he can't just forget that he feels comfortable with lily, especially when the list of people he does feel comfortable with is vanishingly small.
but he knows she'll read it like he's laughing at her, when really he's laughing at the situation, because what else is there to do? neither of them can take back what they've said - neither of them seem particularly eager to return to the subject at all. remus certainly doesn't know where to start. )
Sorry. ( maybe moving quickly past it is the move. ) Wasn't laughing at you. Just- all of this. ( he waves one hand between them as the other pulls his book out of his bag. he's certainly not making eye contact with her. bravery has its limits. ) Of course you read. I know you. We're friends. I'm being a berk.
[ The words came blurted out on the heels of his declaring himself a berk, and though she wished she'd been more articulate in her delivery it didn't make it any less sincere. It didn't mean she knew where to go from here, but, at least she'd gotten that much out.
Certain that it was time to make a hasty exit, Lily pressed on saying what she had to say as she meticulously packed up her bag to run away. ]
I shouldn't have pressed the issue when you clearly weren't interested. I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable, I promise, the matter's dropped.
No, Evans, it's- ( they're both almost talking over each other, and neither of them really know what it is they're rushing to say. ) I didn't say I wasn't interested. I mean, I don't know if I am. ( great romantic game, remus lupin, just great. )
I mean. I couldn't really get myself to believe you were genuinely interested. In the first place. ( okay, it would be great if a hole could open up now and swallow them up. )
[ She grips her bag tightly as though she intends to stand at any moment, relenting at the last second in favor of nervous prattling. ]
I'd been trying to subtly hint for years, and perhaps I went from much too subtle to much too direct far too quickly for either of us. I still apologize.
( wait. years? hold on. no, remus can't think about this now, or else he'll just gape at her as she leaves, and he needs to stop her from leaving, because- because why? just because. )
I'm not saying it was too much. I'm not saying no, either. Just that I'm a bit stupid. You have nothing to apologize for.
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but he knows she'll read it like he's laughing at her, when really he's laughing at the situation, because what else is there to do? neither of them can take back what they've said - neither of them seem particularly eager to return to the subject at all. remus certainly doesn't know where to start. )
Sorry. ( maybe moving quickly past it is the move. ) Wasn't laughing at you. Just- all of this. ( he waves one hand between them as the other pulls his book out of his bag. he's certainly not making eye contact with her. bravery has its limits. ) Of course you read. I know you. We're friends. I'm being a berk.
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[ The words came blurted out on the heels of his declaring himself a berk, and though she wished she'd been more articulate in her delivery it didn't make it any less sincere. It didn't mean she knew where to go from here, but, at least she'd gotten that much out.
Certain that it was time to make a hasty exit, Lily pressed on saying what she had to say as she meticulously packed up her bag to run away. ]
I shouldn't have pressed the issue when you clearly weren't interested. I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable, I promise, the matter's dropped.
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I mean. I couldn't really get myself to believe you were genuinely interested. In the first place. ( okay, it would be great if a hole could open up now and swallow them up. )
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[ She grips her bag tightly as though she intends to stand at any moment, relenting at the last second in favor of nervous prattling. ]
I'd been trying to subtly hint for years, and perhaps I went from much too subtle to much too direct far too quickly for either of us. I still apologize.
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( wait. years? hold on. no, remus can't think about this now, or else he'll just gape at her as she leaves, and he needs to stop her from leaving, because- because why? just because. )
I'm not saying it was too much. I'm not saying no, either. Just that I'm a bit stupid. You have nothing to apologize for.
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[ Lily laughed sheepishly, aware of how wrong-footed her attempt at a consoling remark was so far. ]
You're the least stupid bloke?